Convicted

This morning I went to a new mom's bible study.  Yes, I know I'm not a new mom, but I am one of the 2 "seasoned" moms who hopefully can offer some words of wisdom should they be needed.  I almost didn't go, partly because I didn't have gas, and partly because of pride.  I wanted to start a mom group back when I resigned from my position as nursery director, but clearly it was not the right time.  And like I said in my previous post, sometimes we don't invite the Lord into our plans and it doesn't work out so well.

This last year, I realized that when I thought I was seeking God's will on things, I was really just telling Him what I wanted and then demanding that He make it happen.  And I pitched some fits when it didn't happen too.  More recently though, I've learned I'm learning that I need to FIRST seek God before I come up with my own ideas, submit to His will, and then trust that He will work it out, the way I expect it to or not.

I was humbled this morning while reading the passages of our book and listening to these brand new or even just pregnant moms speak.  I mean, they are younger than me and some of them seem to already get IT.  I'm not just a homemaker.  I am serving the Lord through supporting and loving my husband, raising our kids, and caring for our home.  I'm not meant to be "Supermom", but I am meant to be a mom who FIRST seeks the Lord and allows HIM to work through me, allowing me to love and work and do the mundane with a joyful heart through Him.  

As one of my friends put it, I can't even love my kids on my own.  God loves them through me.  And He can't use me to love them if I'm not plugged into Him daily.  I don't have any more excuses because there are none.  The ONLY way I'm going to be able to do or be anything is through God.  I really need to step it up (through Him)  I don't know about "seasoned."  I still have SOOO much to learn.
The Lord replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." ~ Exodus 33:14

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